My long-time readers know that I don’t do the typical wishful thinking new years resolutions. I choose Life Resolutions that challenge me to grow physically, mentally, or socially and have tangible action plans.
Through the years, I’ve tackled Life Resolutions that required a lot of effort (hitting the greens by myself twice a week until I was finally able to beat my father at a game of golf) and some that were relatively simple (going bungee jumping for the first time) but the common theme among them all was that I was continually growing and changing.
Although I had great success in the first four years, I have to say that I’ve failed quite miserably over the last two. In 2010, I accomplished my most frightening Life Resolution to date — have something I’ve written published and get paid for it. But it was also the year I was suppose to send birthday cards to everyone in my extended family. Not only did I fail to send anyone cards, I had dozens of family members who thought they didn’t make the cut when their birthdays came and went with no card from me! FAIL.
We won’t even talk about the conversational German I was suppose to learn in 2010. Let’s just say…ich spreche nicht Deutsch. 😦
In 2011, I set out to publish my cookbook and run a half marathon. By the beginning of the year, I had lined up a fantastic food photographer to partner with me in the cookbook project, agreed to a contract, and started working on recipes.
But then came Jillian.
And before I knew it, 2011 was the year that my blog morphed from a wannabe baking blog to a Health & Fitness blog, I started kettlebell training, and I found myself in the best shape of my life. My blog readership spiked like crazy and suddenly a baking cookbook didn’t make a whole lot of sense.
But the half-marathon! Surely that would make sense! And yet every time I tried to train, my knees would give out at the 8-mile mark and I was side-lined from running for another 4 weeks while they healed. I eventually sought professional help from a Sports Physician and a Physiotherapist. Both had nothing to tell me other than “your knees look fine” and gave me suggestions for strengthening my hips in hopes that it would help correct whatever was going on. I left each office trying not to scream, “I’M NOT A WIMP!! THERE REALLY IS SOMETHING WRONG!!” but held back.
It’s defeating when your lungs and cardiovascular system are eager to keep going (thank you kettlebell!) but your joints are the limiting factor. So until I come up with a better solution (or a better Sports Physician), I have given up the goal of running a half-marathon and settle for being happy with 5 miles and no injury. But even still….FAIL.
So as we embark on 2012, I keep asking myself, what do I want to try this year? What should 2012 be about?
Although I have a few things floating around in my head, there’s nothing screaming out at me like past years. Am I gun-shy because of my past failures? Perhaps. But failing has never scared me and I don’t think it’s going to start now. I am proud of all that I’ve accomplished this past year — more than any other year! Just because I started out wanting something different, doesn’t take away from that success.
And so I’ll keep searching and get back to you.